time to move, time for change

my apartment is quiet, there are boxes everywhere, and i'm snuggled in bed. today will consist of packing up my life from the past 3 years and i'm not quite ready to face it yet. two of my roommates have already gone home for christmas and the other is at work. so much has happened the past two months and now that it's all really happening, it's a little surreal. major life changes, the decision to serve a mission, and the decision to go home beforehand. the past two weeks have been emotional, stressful, and exhausting but it was a learning experience and am content with how things have turned out. i'm slowly learning that sometimes you just need to rely on Heavenly Father and things will always work out, even if you have no idea how or why.

so here i am, done with finals and wrapping up my life here in provo for the time being. saying goodbye to the people i'm close with has been hard but i know i'm making the right decision and that we'll see eachother again eventually. i'm getting on the plane on saturday and i'm so excited to see my family. i haven't seen my family since july and it's high time i spend some quality time with those guys. not to mention, my family in japan who i will be seeing in exactly a week!! so many exciting things to come in the upcoming weeks. but right now, my closet is staring me down so...

Change is in the air

Change

It's the only constant thing in life

Well a lot has been happening in this apartment lately. But the most important one is that Jessica is engaged! I'm so excited for her and Kyle and the start of their new life together. They are so happy and in love. The majority of what I'm feeling is excitement and happiness for them. But if I am to be completely honest, there are also some serious mixed emotions.

Jess and I have been really close friends since sophomore year in high school. We have become even closer after coming to college and living with eachother. We've been through quite a bit. I consider her to be my other half, partner in crime, [insert another cliche name for a best friend].

But now she's gone and decided to get herself hitched and leave me.

This was bound to happen sometime. And I know it's supposed to be this way. But if I'm going to be completely honest again, it hurts wee bit. Not in a malicious why-are-you-doing-this-to-me kind of way but more of like a I-can't-believe-you're-leaving-meeeeeee-what-am-I-going-to-do kind of way. But I'm a big girl; I know I will be fine. Eventually. Jess sent me this the other day and it made me feel a little better {even if it was cheesy}.

So even though I get a little weepy sometimes just thinking about this big new change, I keep telling myself that this is the way things are supposed to be and that everything will work out. Although, I am a teensy bit nervous about my new roommate {and I'm willing to bet that she won't have as many cute clothes as Jess..} Goodbye to our pillowtalk, late night runs to 7/11 for Ben&Jerry's, coming home and going over our days together, insane laugh attacks, sleepovers, and our memorable quote book. And not only am I losing my roommate, I'm losing the wonderful Bath and Body Works soap she bought, the entire spice cupboard, the yummy smelling wallflowers, and the big tan belt that matches almost everything. {Buuuuut on the bright side, I get her foam mattress pad muahaha}.

I've never been a huge fan of change but I'm getting to the point where I can accept it. And to try to make this less of a pity party post, I'm going to give a shout out to one thing that isn't changing--I'm rooming with Carly again next semester! I'm so grateful that we are. I love that girl :) Our other roommate, Hillary, is also engaged so we might be getting two new roommates. Holy moly. But in the meantime, I'm going to enjoy all the talk of photography, dresses, centerpieces, invitations, colors, and rings. Happy Weekend! Enjoy the last bits of Fall {if it hasn't left already..}